The One Where I Act Like It Hasn't Been Six Months Since I Last Posted...

Yeah, I know, I kinda gave this blog up.  It's been irking me for the past six months, because, despite the fact that there are very few people actually reading this, this blog represents the changes I worked so hard to make - physically and emotionally.

And, there was a good reason for my lack of posts.

I stalled.  I stalled in my effort to be a positive person and I stalled in my weight loss.  I didn't gain much, went up into the lesser 180's, but I had lost that spark.  The willpower to resist temptation.

I didn't know if it would come back.  I was seriously concerned.  I decided that even if I didn't lose another pound, I was down 70 pounds, and that would have to do.  But, that didn't set well with me.  I didn't want to be "thinner".  I want to be FIT.  STRONG. HEALTHY.

So, I certainly didn't post here.  The few people who had been reading this blog asked what had happened, why wasn't I posting?

Uh, because I was failing!  I don't want to post about that!

But, I'm no longer failing.  A few weeks ago, that spark returned.  I suddenly had the resolve not to eat bullshit food and I had the URGE to exercise like mad.  So, that's what I've been doing.

I weighed in at 171.5 this morning.  Officially my lowest weight since going on this journey.  All of my size 14s are getting a little loose, and I can fit into my slender boyfriend's jeans again.  I'm starting to need size mediums when I used to look for XXLs.

It's on again, and I'm not gonna quit until I'm where I want to be.  I'm thinking roughly 120, depending on how much muscle I wind up with.

Hello, again. :)