I am observing a change in my attitude. My father's illness has raised up some deep seeded family drama - which I will not get more specific about than that, because it would be tacky - and, the way I've handled it has been wildly different than I would have a month ago.
I've had to swallow my pride to better a situation - even though I wasn't wrong. I've remained calm and rational in extremely emotional and angry situations. I have always had problems letting things go. Problems linger in my head far longer than they should. "Snap out of it", "Get over it" and "Let it go" don't normally work.
But, when I start to feel like a bad mood is coming on, I stop myself from diving into it with gusto, and work out what's going on in my head, rather than obsess about it all night. That is not at all like me.
Well, I guess maybe it is now.
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