For the longest time, I've been down. Run down. Down thoughts. Down actions. Just negative in every way. I'm highly stressed, even though I don't have a particularly stressful life. I snap easily, and I have a bad temper. I always feel tired, and though I actually have the desire to exercise and get fit, I don't have the energy. I get dizzy a lot, and I often have minor headaches. I have stomach problems (I have long suspected an ulcer), and digestion tends to make me nauseous. I have heart palpitations and I would not be surprised if I either have diabetes or I'm pre-diabetic.
I've dug myself into a huge rut, and I need to get out before I have a nervous breakdown, lose friends, wind up in the hospital or just plain have a heart attack or stroke and die.
My father had a major heart attack, and he is overweight. I think that his heart attack was what first got me really good and scared about the way my life was going.
But, it's not just the physical. I'm a negative person, and I don't like it. I'm sure my boyfriend doesn't like it. Who would? And, it's not my nature. I'm a relatively funny person - outgoing, despite social anxiety. Yet, my mind constantly invents and then recycles negative thoughts. I'm fighting myself, here.
This blog isn't just about vegetables and superfood. It's about trying to become a better person for myself, and for the people in my life.
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